My life isn't what I want it to be. I'm not who I want to be.

Life in Meridian has just gotten me a little down. Not much to do. No real friends to hang out/talk to. I'll expand more about what I meant a little later when I have time. 

I am not enjoying my job as much as I would have hoped. Most days all I do is watch the clock waiting for it to be 5. Some days it's tolerable and I am able to stay busy. But more often than not it is boring and time just drags on. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing I'm only here for a little while longer.

I feel that at almost 24 I should have more and inkling or idea of what I want to do with my life. I went to college and payed a lot of money for a degree I'm not even using. I'm thinking about back and getting my masters in teaching. But I also think that maybe I should substitute a little first to see if it is even something I am interested in. I also am afraid that if I pay the money for a master I will end up doing the same thing, spending a lot of money on a degree I'm not going to use. 

I miss having close girlfriends to hang out with, get coffee with, and just in general talk to about stuff. I know I can talk to Mike about anything but sometimes I just need girl talk. There are girls here that I can hang out with but none really that I would want to share my life woes with, I'm just not that close to any of them. Part of the problem is that this place is so transient that as soon as I get close to someone and I feel like I could share a deeper part of myself, either they have to move or I am having to move. Hopefully from here on it when our location will be more steady this one will work itself out.