Alaska

So this summer my family and I went on an Alaskan Cruise, thought I'd post some pics.

One week in...

Well I am one week into my new job. It is a lot of stuff to learn. I am doing the book-keeping for four companies owned by the family. One of the stores has just opened and they are unsure of exactly how the booking is going to run so I will be smack in the middle of that. So far things have been going rather well. I have enjoyed it, which I wasn't sure how I would deal with the whole money tracking and billin thing. But all has gone well so far and I enjoy the family and my coworkers. The one down side to the location that I am working out of is that I am the youngest person by ten years or more. All of the other young military wives are working at the new locaiton. Although there might be opportunity in a few months for another sales associate at where I am I think this is how it's going to be here for awhile.

But the people that I do work with are nice and fun. One of them is the wife and instructor in VT-9, which is not the squadron that Michael is in, Michael is in VT-7. It seems like many of our friends are in 9. Although for other than flying and squadron based events and games it doesn't realy matter what squadron you are in. There is no real difference in either of them, although some people say that one of the is a faster track than the other, but that depends on who you talk to and when. There is going to be some change in command for both squadrons in the next few months and that could change how things go in the different squadrons. So we'll see what happens.

Things have started to go better for me. Not even really since I started working, although I think that had a lot to do with it. I seem to have become more open to meeting people and act slightly different around strangers than normally I would have. Well I guess not strangers but other military wives. I had always thought of myself as a shy person but I seem to have been getting out of that a little bit. Which I guess is a good thing because I will be meeting new people all the time in the line of work Michael is in. With us moving all the time, and eventually he might even be in some leadership position in charge of a squadron or something of that sort. In that case I would have to be in charge of the "wives club" or somthing of that sort for the spouses of that squadron. We'll see where life takes us.

Michael still has to get past the E2/C2 draft first. Which will most likely be no earlier than May, of next year. Once we get past that hump will determine whether we are moving at that time or if we will be staying here for another 6-8 months after that point. The plan is for him to stay and finish training here because that means that he will be flying what he wants to fly and doing what he set out to do when he started at the academy as a plebe. All of that was working towards becoming a jet pilot, with whihc the whole draft being thrown in the mix recently could mess that up a little bit. But like I said we'll see where life takes.

I think that's enough for now. Will talk again soon.

New Job

Well I have officially started my new job. I am working at Woodstock Furniture, a local family owned business, as their book-keeper. This is something that I have never done, and something I never really saw myself doing. But with new places comes new adventures. And in a tiny town like Meridian, MS I have to take what jobs I can get. It will be a good opportunity and a good resume builder for in the future. Plus it might help me get on track of our own finances or if I open my open business or run a youth group.

And yes you did read open my own business. I'm going to look into running an out of the home business that I would be able to do while working in another job, or going to school, or even after we have kids. Not sure if it is going to happen or if it would even be fruitful, but with as much as we move I think it is worth looking into.

This new job is going to be a lot to learn. Like I said it is all stuff that I have never done before. And I personally have never had bills to pay or really had to keep track of many so on that note it will be a little different as well. But this might be where I was suppose to be for that exact reason. So that I can get personal finances in check and Michael and I will be able to save money and spend on doing fun things together. 

There is not a lot to do in the little town that we live in and we have to drive places and spend money in order to do things that are in the least bit fun. Even if what we actually do doesn't cost money the gas money to get there or the hotel to stay cause it is too far to just do a day trip is what costs money.

I'm hoping this new job will begin to bring a sense of meaning and purpose back into my life. Just sitting around the house here doing nothing was getting really depressing. I'm contemplating going back to school to get my masters. But again that costs money. I'm not sure if I want to do teaching or english lit or both.

50 years..

I recently went home for my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary. Quite a feet in this day and age with people getting married before they are ready. Some might have said that Michael and I were too young when we got married, at 22. But even though we may have been young we were ready to be married and all that that entails. We have been happily living together, after four years of dating a part. And I know that we will have to spend some time of our marriage apart while Michael is on deployments. But I think I can handle that. Hopefully by then I will have friends to help make the time go faster. Who knows, we might even have kids by then. Wow, kids. Weird to think about! That's not going to be for another year or two at the earliest. Michael and I would like to do some weekend trips and travels. Which is harder enough to do with a dog, let alone kids!

I have respect for my friends who are starting families. I thought I would be like that too getting married and starting a family right away. And while I do want kids I think I have decided wait a little bit longer. There are something's inthe planning stages for the next year that would be halted and ruined if I had a kid. Towards the end of next year I think is a good time to begin the pregnancy process. But it is ultimately what God has in store and not Michael or myself. We'll see what his plan is. 

A job, In Meridian?? Who'd a thunk it...

Yep, I might actually finally have a job. Well maybe anyway. I interviewed for an office management position at Woodstock furniture. I would work M-F 9-5. It would be awesome. And might just help me brighten up my outlook on life and this frickin town that I have landed in!!

Wish I knew how to do this...

So I see other people's blogs with pictures and videos and everything all cutsie, but I have no idea how to that. Wish that I did. Then I might put up mor einteresting stuff and have more to say.

Going nowhere

So it's been a bit since I last wrote anything. Mainly because there has really been a lack of anything exciting going on in my life at the moment. I have yet to come out of whatever slump moving to podunk Mississippi has put me in. When I get away from here and don't have to worry about having nothing to do and no job, I'm fine.

Just last weekend we went to Annapolis and the academy for a wedding of one of Mike's classmates. It was beautiful, well the weather wasn't but the campus was and the wedding was. We got to see a few of the guys and gals that we hadn't seen since our wedding, so that was nice especially for Mike. It was just a quick turnaround trip, just one night. But it was awesome to get out of here for a but and see what big towns are like. And to have a Starbucks drink!! Amazing thing Starbucks, sad that I don't have one closer to me. 

Have I mentioned before that I have drive over an hour to a Target and Starbucks?? It's craziness!! There are also no craft stores around so if I need any scrapbooking stuff I also have to drive over an hour to get to one of those. I'm amazed of the people that have lived here their whole lives knowing nothing else. Although, I guess if you know nothing else than you don't know what you are missing. But man am I missing a lot. I had thought that Pensacola was bad when we moved there from Scottsdale, but this is much worse. Pensacola was a good transition city I guess. We have seen a lot of movies since being here because that is about all there is to do.

On to maybe some more exciting things. I have been looking for a job for a couple of months now and finally got some calls to interview last week. I had two interviews last Friday before we left town. One was at a local furniture store which is expanding to sell children's furniture and they need floor sale associates. They did offer me the job: BUT it would require me to work on weekends and I'm getting out of the animal field because of that very reason, and I'm just not sure that want to do retail. They did offer me part time to work just MWF if I want to take that, so I told them I would think about it.

I also interviewed at Peavey; which some may or may not have heard of. It's a big guitar and amplifier company and the international headquarters is right here in Meridian, one thing this small town has going for them (they also have a Coca-Cola bottling plant). The founder of Peavey is from meridian, and still works at the company on a daily basis. I would be an assitant for the guy that handles all their "big box" accountants -- Target, Wal-Mart, Penney's, Guitar World places like that. I think it would be a very interesting place to work and it would actually require some thought and more work than just "Here's a crib, wanna buy it?" K, so the furniture probably wouldnt be that bad but still. 

AND then, just this week I interviewed at a lawyer's office in a neighboring city that if much smaller than Meridian. And let me tell, it was a southern lawyer's office. My interview was at 8 am, coming from a bigger city, I of course showed up about 10 minutes early, only to find out that in small town lawyer's offices you can be ten minutes late an no one will notice. The lawyer promptly shows up at about half past 8 -- big white guy, disheveled hair, khaki cargo pants and a multi-color plaid shirt. Not exactly what I was expecting for a lawyer. All the girls (all his assitants were young women around my age?!?!) were wearing jeans and little sweaters or khaki pants and little tops. Needless to say I most likely will not be taking that position if they call me back.

I am really hoping that Peavey will offer me a position at their company. It would be the most interesting and probably where I would learn the most. The people that were there just seemed like they had such a fun attitude about work and life. One major bonus about Peavey also is that they close down for about 2 weeks around Christmas/New Years, so I wouldn't have to worry about taking the time off when we come to AZ during that time.

Hopefully something will come soon because I'm getting really bored here. I have met a few wives. I have been plugged in with wives club for Michael's squadron so that has been nice. The one down side to some of my neighborhood wives is that they already have children or are pregnant. There are probably only about a handful of us in the neighborhood that don't fall under one of those categories. Some of them are a year of two older then me, their husbands are just a little ahead of Michael and they already have two kids, some even expecting their third! I cannot imagine that right now. I mean Michael and I have talked about starting in about a year for a family. 

Well I think I have rambled enough. I haven't written anything in so long I'm sure most of it isn't even grammatically correct or anything. I really need to get back into school or something too. I just need something to do!!

Blah...

Well life has been nothing but boring in Meridian, MS. Michael has started his next stage of flight training which means that since I have no job I sit at home alone now with Sunset, our dog. I never thought I would really miss working so much. As far as jobs go I put in applications at Books a million and Lifeway Christian Bookstore and have not heard anything from them yet, that was a little over a month ago. I also put a resume in at peavey entertainment, they make guitars and stereo equipment. That was a few weeks ago and haven't heard anything from them yet either.

There is a possibility that there are some jobs available on base but I haven't gone over to check them out yet. I also thought about dropping off my resume at some christian schools down in town but haven't done that either. I just haven't seemed to be able to do anything lately. All I do is sleep, wake up late and move to the couch where I watch tv or play xbox all day. On occasion I will take Sunset on a walk or do a few sit ups and push ups, but I can't seem to motivate myself to do much more that that. Although I constantly look at myself in the mirror and am unhappy with what I see. I am totally worthless and can't seem to get myself out of this rut.

I finally ordered some pictures so that I can make some scrapbooks. Maybe that will give me something to do that will help me to feel happy and give me some energy again. I had gone to the doctor and kinda talked to him about me sleeping so much and not really wanting me to do anything, he suggested that I try an herbal pill at night to get my sleeping back on track but it hasn't really helped. My mom was taking the same thing to help her sleep and I am trying to not sleep as much so not sure how it can work for both things.

I am to the point now that I am considering going and talking to a therapist/counselor. But I still haven't decided if I want to succumb to that. But I think I need to start doing something because I cant keep living like this. it's not fair to me and it is especially not fair to my husband.

Mike has been nothing but wonderful since our move. In Pensacola I had a job and friends and a life. But since we've moved i haven't been able to find any of that and it has been really hard on my. I never thought that I would really need girlfriend talk as much as I do. I don't ever really remember hanging out with girls too much, but I always had my mom and a few close girls that I could talk to. And that was all I needed. But I don't really have any girlfriends that I can just hang out with and talk in meridian. All the girls in our neighborhood either already have children, are pregnant, or have children and are pregnant. I have not found too many that are not pregnant or don't already have kids. And even those ones that I have found are already in groups and have friends, and I can't seem to break into the group. I don't know what to do. Mike does all that he can to help me hang out with people, but usually we are just hanging out with his friends from the academy, boys and single. Not exactly what I need right now.

He also has been good about the whole job thing. right now financially I don't really need to work, and he makes sure that I know that we are not hurting for money. He knows that I want to work so that I have something to do with my time. But knowing that he feels this way has made me start thinking about part time work or volunteer. I would like part time so that I don't have to work weekends, since that is what Michael will always have off. Plus then we can take some day trips and weekend getaways around the south which could be fun.

Well I think I have gotten most things off my chest that I wanted to. I use to write like this all the time but I don't anymore and it's kinda sad. Someday I know my life will turn around, but i also know that I need to make an initial move for it to start moving in that direction. And that is something that i haven't been able to do yet. I want to lose weight, but can't make myself workout. I want a job, but can't make myself actively going job hunting. I want friends, but I stay in my home all day and night feeling pathetic and sorry for myself. I didn't use to be like this, and i'm newly and happily married so I should not be feeling like this now, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!

Just the beginning...

So I have finally decieded to join the phenomena of blogging. Currently with no job I will probably be using this a lot to vent.